dahntildusk

Still sick.
Now Im depressed.
Why do I even try anymore...





Why do I keep getting my hopes up.



I dont know what to even do...






Sorry for venting, I know all I ever do is complain.

So Yeah. Things have happened. First of all, the only point of this journal I think is to vent, I feel the need to just write down things that are going on right now. o.o It's all useless information, but funny anyway.

So in IMIII, our teacher Mr. S promised us a free day because our class donated the most money to the Make A Wish Foundation. He had us vote on what we should do on our free day. The conversation went something like this.

Christian: I say we rave. Who wants to rave!! We could all go crazy and get a god sweat going.
*four people raise their hands, laughing*
Mr. S: Okay, so that's four votes to get all sweaty with Christian.
Christian: Or a disco even, turn the heat up and get a good sweat going.
Mr. S: So either way, you just want to get sweaty?
Alex: I say cornhole. Or! What about soda pong!
Mr. S: No! I went to college, I know what that implies.
Steven: Oh come on, we would use soda, not beer.
Mr. S: You are all fools.
Christian: How about we go to the gym and ball it hard. And make sure we crank up the heat to get a good sweat going.
Mr. S: Oh my gosh Christian, if you want to get sweaty so bad, just wear one of those sweatsuits or something.
Ch: And look like an old lady? "Let's play checkers, kiddos!"
Brady: How about we go to the pool and everyone can watch me swim. Ladies.
Ch: No! I still say we rave. Crank the heat up to a nice 98 degrees, shut the blinds, turn out the lights, and Mr. S leaves the room for an hour and a half.
Mr. S: Okay I feel violated just having listened to that.
Abby: Why violated? He didn't touch you or anything.
Ch: That's why he is going to leave the room!
Mr. S: Alright whatever. Just remember, if you choose to rave, you are choosing to be alone. In the dark. With him. *points to Christian*
Ch: I rave naked, just so you all know.
Jolie: Why not just do like pizza and a movie. That sort of thing.
Mr. S: That sounds much better. Just no rave.
Ch: Oh come on. Fine. You can stay at the rave. And we can demonstrate our sweet dance skills.
Mr. S: You can show your sweet dance moves, but the clothes have to stay on.
Ch: Oh come on. The shirt has to come off at one point.
Mr. S:... Pizza and a movie it is then.


And I feel really stupid. So at work yesterday, after Nick and I had both clocked out, I checked my pocket and realized I didn't have my phone. I thought it fell out of my pocket while we were working. He stayed for like 45 minutes to help me look aaaalll over the damn place for it. We tried calling it, nothing. And we never did find it. So he left, and I used the work phone to call my mom to tell her my shift was over so she could come get me, letting her know that I couldn't find my phone. Then she tells me. IT WAS IN HER CAR THE WHOLE DAMN TIME. IT FELL OUT OF MY POCKET IN THE CAR. THE SEARCH WAS FOR NOTHING. I feel so dumb.
_{Also, Nick seriously has the best smile I have ever seen in my life. I almost keeled over right then and there when he smiled. Just saying.}

Lastly, I am scarred for life. Tye has this game on his phone. It's dirty truth or dare. So, naturally, he makes me put my name in with his, and hit dare. Omfg. I don't even. No thanks. Lets just leave it at that.

And that uh. That was Friday.

A - Age: 16
B - Bed size: Queeeeen
C - Chore you hate: I don't have any chores that I particularly hate.
D - Dog's name: Chewbacca.
E - Essential start your day item: My hat thing.
F - Favorite color: Orange or Green~
G - Gold or Silver: Silver. Gold is all ugly-like.
H - Height: I think I'm 5'7"
I - Ireland or Italy: I... can't decide O.o
J - Job title: I am without a job right now... grr..
K - Kid(s): Well. I have none.
L - Living arrangements: Well I am legally inclined to live with my parents still. So I am.
M - Mom's name: Melissa
N - Nicknames: Tader. Primarily. I mean since my first name is Taylor and I have a lot of friends who enjoy making extraordinarily camp jokes about all that. Dictator. Tater Tots. FML. All that or of course Dawn.
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Quite a bit actually. I don't feel like actually typing out all of it. -.-
P - Pet Peeve(s): I could, on the other hand, list these. When people chew with their mouths open, when the wind fucks up my hair, when doors or windows are left open, slow internet, when anyone messes with my hair for noooo reason, etc...
Q - Quote from a movie: "There is no tool. In this pool."
R - Righty or Lefty: Ambidextrous
S - Siblings: 13 year old brother, 10 year old brother, 6 year old brother, and 8 year old sister.
T - Time you wake up: 6:27 on weekdays, even when there isn't school. I like to just sleep all day on the weekends. *yawn*
U - Underwear: Awesomely neon green. So yeah.
V - Vegetables you dislike: Corn
W - Water or land: Land. I have an irrational fear of deep water actually...
X - X-rated or PG: Neither? Idk. Weird.
Y - Yesterday's best moment: Driving my mom to one of her drug dea- I mean. Blankets. She was buying blankets. Yesterday was rather uneventful.
Z - Zoo favorite: The giraffes. I love giraffes~~~^^*@!$&(!@$!*WISH-

wtf I just typed "wish" on accident. weeeeird.

SO basically, everyone around me is slowly being sucked into a whirpool of illness, and I'm just here. Pretty sure I am high off of the fumes from this paint pen. Well no, that's not it at all, but I do have a headache. And now I am ranting.
Did I tell you about the time my dog climbed into the kitchen window sill from the deck outside, so that when I looked up from the sink, all I saw was dog. Or, I guess that should end in a ?. I don't know anymore. My head hurts. Too much paint.

Meanwhile,

Stupid quotes from people I know!

Steven: Hi, my name is Steven and I'll be your Steven for the day.








Good night.

OF ANGER. RIGHT NOW.

I have never been this angry. I went to a movie with Nicky, right? Movie gets out at 7:00. But of course, The Walking Dead Starts at 7:00. Now I know I myself am utterly obsessed with that show, but to the point where I leave my child to sit at the movie theatre for a fucking HOUR so that I can watch it? Seriously?? SO MUCH. FURIOUS. Because it's NOT LIKE THE EPISODE COMES ON AGAIN AFTER THE TALKING DEAD, SO MISSING IT WOULDN'T MEAN SHIT SINCE YOU COULD STILL DEFINITELY WATCH IT, AT 9:00. NOPE. NOT WORTH IT TO PICK UP MY CHILD FROM THE THEATRE. WKUGFIWFGWKADGIFSURGFKHNCREJYGFH